Immuned

I try! I try so hard but it ain’t working for me.. The more I give this guy a opportunity to get close to me , the more I miss “HIM”!! “Him” The unnameable … This guy is perfect .. Treats me the way I should be treated But … But What? .I’m suppose to pretend … pretend like it doesn’t hurt like I'm happy.. .. I saw him today .. But I had to leave. I knew if I would stay this feelings would grow.. Why cant my heart just move on! It’s like we’re two way different people. Fighting to take control. It been 2 years… it feels like I’ve been through hell and back… I want to be immune to this pain … when will be the day that my heart turns to stone and just forgets.

Love Fading

Its been days since I’ve seen or heard his voice. I can feel the pain building in my heart and soul, the tears coming through. I have no power to hold them back. When is this pain going to stop? Its been so long. I want to rip the feel of his lips, his touch and his hands out of my soul. After all the pain his cause me my heart still skips a bit when I see him! All the lies …betrayals… yet in my eyes, he’s perfected. How can he just turn around, leave the past behind, without looking back and seeing what we had… nothings perfect, I know, but was it that bad. I can feel the love fading and its scaring me. I know how love feels and I don’t want to lose it! Will you ever see through your true heart before its TO LATE !

Unforgettable Love

"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing." Anais Nin