Immuned

I try! I try so hard but it ain’t working for me.. The more I give this guy a opportunity to get close to me , the more I miss “HIM”!! “Him” The unnameable … This guy is perfect .. Treats me the way I should be treated But … But What? .I’m suppose to pretend … pretend like it doesn’t hurt like I'm happy.. .. I saw him today .. But I had to leave. I knew if I would stay this feelings would grow.. Why cant my heart just move on! It’s like we’re two way different people. Fighting to take control. It been 2 years… it feels like I’ve been through hell and back… I want to be immune to this pain … when will be the day that my heart turns to stone and just forgets.